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2010 ! Thursday, December 31, 2009 My last day of 2009 was spent cleaning up my room and working. Nothing fanciful, no countdown parties, just sitting here in the comfort of my home, typing up my last post for 2009. Today after work, Acer came for a surprise visit at Pioneer Mall! Haha, I thought he was getting ready to go to town for countdown with the boys as we were texting at that time, but he appeared outside McDonald's, saying that he wants to give me a surprise (: He took me home after we had a coke and Mcflurry, which was why I was kind of late tonight! So summarising my 2009.. It was kind of a shitty year. This year flashed past without me realising nor figuring out much about everyth around me, which is probably why I just sat back and let everyth pile up, then finally crash down on me. No motivation I guess, to do anyth and move ahead. So I kept getting stuck and pacing on the spot. And then the year ended. And I got retained. I remember at the end of 2008, I wanted, with much determination, my 2009 to be a productive and fruitful one. Shit happened. I forgot my resolutions, so I kept none of it, seriously. I am not sure if the resolutions I made yesterday would become nothingness as well. For one, I stuck it onto the first page of my organiser so that I'd be constantly reminded of it. I found floorball, floorball found me. At the start everyth was really great, and I felt truly energised and excited at every training and PT. But son, I guess the strict training regime, and other stuffs, got me too jaded for a bit. I missed lots of trainings in a row, and I guess my skills suck some shit now. I'm really thinking, and thinking. Should I just leave the team? My skills are not really indispensable, so it's not like the team's loss if I just leave. But I also don't want to just leave like this, you knw? Before I even did something impressive for myself and for the team. I made my resolutions last night, and one of them is going to be that, I will never miss trainings without valid reason again, or I will just quit and stop giving everyone so much trouble to account for my presence. Before I figure out which is the way I am going to go, I guess I'll try to get over myself and go for trainings. This is really kind of a mish-mash, because I haven't really thought about what to post about. This year zoomed away without much happenings! I knew PW was a major shit in my life, and caused much displeasure. So glad it's over. 2009 is also the year I first started to work. Well, I sure knw now that working long-term is no easy feat, and I am dying to quit in just 2 short months. Of course the cash is what's kept me going. But I am also glad to say that, despite everyth, I stayed for as long as I said I would, not one day short. K, I have a bad headache, and I really feel this is a lousy year-ender. But this is all I can manage! I am even too lazy to upload photos haha. I shall really, become a better person, you knw? No joke. HAPPY 2010 LOVELIES! New blog from 2010, from NOW. http://astep-ahead.blogspot.com 2009... I confess that in 2009, I have… () Stayed single for the whole year ( ) Made out in/on a car ( ) Kissed in the snow ( ) Celebrated Halloween ( ) Kissed in the rain (x) Had your heart broken (x) Broke someone else’s heart (x) Had a stalker (Kind of...) (x) Went over the minutes on your cell phone (x) Had a good relationship with someone () Someone questioned your sexual orientation ( ) Gotten pregnant ( ) Had an abortion (x) Have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget (x) Done something you’ve regretted () Lost faith in love ( ) Kissed under a mistletoe OTHER () Painted a picture ( ) Wrote a poem (x) Ran a mile ( ) Shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch (x) Posted a blog (x) Listened to music you couldn’t stand (and liked it!) ( ) Went to a sleepover ( ) Went camping () Threw a surprise party (x) Laughed till you cried ( ) Laughed till you peed in your pants (x) Visited a foreign country (x) Cut in a line of waiting people (x) Told someone you were busy when you weren’t ( ) Partied to celebrate the new year (working tonight..) (x) Cooked a disastrous meal (x) Lost something/someone important to you In 2009 I… (x) Broke a promise (x) Lied (x) Went behind your parents back (x) Cried over a broken heart (x) Disappointed someone close (x) Hid a secret (x) Pretended to be happy ( ) Slept under the stars ( ) Kept your new years resolution (kept none, more like..) (x) Forgot your new years resolution (that's why I kept none of it!) (x) Met someone who changed your life ( ) Met one of your idols (x) Changed your outlook on life (x) Sat home all day doing nothing (x) Pretended to be sick (x) Left the country (x) Almost died (x) Given up something important to you ( ) Lost something expensive (x) Learned something new about yourself (x) Tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it (x) Made a change in your life (x) Found out who your true friends were (x) Met great people (x) Stayed up till sunrise (x) Cried over the silliest thing (x) Was never home on weekends ( ) Got into a car accident (x) Had friends who were drifting away from you (x) Had someone close to you die (x) Had a high cell phone bill (x) Spent most of your money on food (spent ALL of my money on food..) ( ) Had a fist fight ( ) Went to the beach with your bf/gf (x) Saw a celebrity (x) Gotten sick ( ) Liked more than 5 people at the same time ( ) Became closer with a lot of people From Yunrou! :D Year-ender soon.  Tmr's my last working day at Giant! And school's reopening real soon, speaking of which I'd done zilch studying and revising this holidays. I don't knw what to say about that!Haven't been updating for a few days, probably because I don't have much in particular to post about. And things haven't been going great. Well, been to the abyss and back, hope things are going to get better from here. Anyw my mum bought me a new digital camera yesterday. I have been wanting one for awhile but I didn't have the cash and stuff. So since I've got my second payslip (500 bucks!) I was looking around the cameras at Giant. There aren't many choices there but I suppose it's good enough. The other cameras sold at Courts are like much more expensive. So I bought mine at Giant for 159 bucks (my mum paid with her 10% staff discount). It's Fujifilm A220 12.2 megapixels. I suppose it's good enough for me! My previous family camera is also Fujifilm (I think), which sucks balls. It's like 2 megapixels and has a screen smaller than my phone's.  Other random shots (with my phone cam):  Red hearts and my hand crank. Lovely things. It's already 31st December, goodness how time flies. I've just worked, slacked, shopped my days away. Tmr's 2010 already. Time for some resolutions making. I will post my year-ender hopefully before I go off to work tmr, or I might not be in time for 12mn! I'm still struggling to get over myself for some things. And I might make some decision which will change my life in some ways. Shall not talk too much. Will be saved for tmr night! New clique so gay! Friday, December 25, 2009 Hello friends, I noticed that the form of my Cbox is currently down. Which might be why there are no tags for me, not that that many people would tag either way. Today is Christmas day, and I haven't texted anyone season's greetings, haha. So MERRY CHRISTMAS to all my friends and loved ones. May better times lie ahead (: So today, I dressed up nicely (like really nicely for my standards) to attend a Christmas Service by CHC at Expo which Jieren invited us (Sharm, Wenyi) to. Before that, I dropped by Giant to hand my manager my present for the gift exchange which I couldn't attend. The Service was pretty good. Caroling, drama and erm, preaching. Don't want to elaborate too much. I did enjoy myself but now I should prepare myself for calls/texts from them for more erm, preaching. Well anyw, I might become a believer one day. But not now. And I will find my faith through true meaning and not by others' persistent preaching. Afterward, went to town with Acer briefly and we bought each other Xmas presents. Could only stay for awhile because I had to go for Xmas dinner at my Grandma's place. The meal was good and I came home and found that the present I got from Giant is quite a nice ornamental candle holder from Kumar. Shall thank him tmr. Last 6 days at Giant, of which 2 are off days. Work at 7am tmr, goodness. I shall turn in early tonight. :) Thursday, December 24, 2009 I just returned from 5N's Christmas party at Calvin's place, and it was so good (: We didn't really do any super-fun things but just sat and chatted, ate, watched TV, chilled basically. I feel really happy after the party and I hope everyone enjoyed themselves! We had great laughs over the baby photos that our classmates provided, and gift exchange was cool too. I got a cute tin of Famous Amos cookies from Shixian (: Yunrou got my Disney frosty cup. I like the cup, it's cute, hope she likes it too! Then we took class photos. The security guard is so nice and cute too. After taking 2 shots for us, he suddenly said "Candid!" And all of us scrambled around to position ourselves, haha. We gave him some of our food which we really could not finish and he quite unwillingly accepted it, haha. We still had lots of food left and I brought half the turkey home, much to my brother's delight. Sat around and chatted more with the class while Calvin's mum was helping us to clean up the fondue machine. His family had really been a great help to us and I am sincerely grateful to them. We managed to decorate the place to look quite cool too (: Pictures are with Wenyi and Kexin. Might post some up after they uploaded it. Today was great fun! Tmr I am going to town (again) for shopping trip with Sharman and Wenyi. Hopefully I can buy nice clothes tmr. I don't think I'll buy my $45.90 black&gold bag. I feel like I've spent a lot recently and this month's payslip is going to be a bit short of 500 bucks ): I will buy both my brothers something for Christmas and give my parents $100 each. Hope that tmr will be a good day with good finds. Anyw, Sylvia don't feel guilty alr ba haha, I knw you didn't do it on purpose. I'm still contemplating what to do now... Goodnight! [edit] Here's our 5N class photo at the party! Kexin's quick in uploading them all to Facebook!  (click to get a clearer view)[/edit] More rantings Monday, December 21, 2009 Life sucks a fuck. Indian customers are really the irritating ones sometimes, y'knw? Even my mother agrees. 1st Scenario: Yesterday there was an Indian woman rifling through our already very messed-up towels. I almost went mad trying to make everyth neat again. She needs to open up every neatly folded towel in every colour available and then throw it back after she decided she doesn't want it. She chose an orange one and slung it over her shoulder, then continued the rifling, unfolding and tossing them back. What the shit, all the towels are the same, it's not like there are patterns or anyth AT ALL on them, they are just completely plain towels in different colours lor. But then, that was still okay, because I knw many customers are just so strange and stuff. And I was damn relieved when she finally walked away. But she headed to another towel section and messed the whole damn place up, wtf. Then still never mind, the worst thing was that she came back after walking infinite rounds in the towel section and came to my neatly folded pile and asked, "Can I have this?" She was pointing to another identical orange towel to the one slung over her shoulder. NOT EVEN DIFFERENT COLOUR OKAY! Seeing no response from me, she self service and took it away, throwing the one over her shoulder back into the wagon. WHAT. THE. HOLY. FUCK. My first reaction to her question was, "I can say no meh?" Next question that came to my head and was one second from escaping my lips, "What's the difference with this one and the one over your shoulder?" Thinking better of it, I decided to have no response. Fucking irritating and stupid, no? Mcnuggets. 2nd Scenario: Today before facing time, me and my colleagues were trying to rearrange the soft toys section to clear 2 wagons up for other display. Then we had to arrange all the same soft toys to the same racks, because previously they were scattered and all over the place (thanks to all these customers lor, thanks). We were very busy the whole time, and haven't had the chance to change the position of the price tags to the respective soft toys yet. Then, this Indian woman asked me about the price of a particular bear. I scanned and told her, "$19.99" She had the nerve to point at the sign "$1.99" and ask me "Not $1.99? Here write $1.99" And gave me an awkward smile like I am the idiot who doesn't knw what's going on. Goodness, let me tell you. That bear she picked up was about as big as her toddler at her feet. Repeat: Toddler, not baby okay. Like so fucking big sell at $1.99? If there are such good deals under the sun I probably don't need to work at Giant and serve stupid people with no common sense like this lor. Zzz. And most importantly, I really cannot stand it, and hate it when customers complain that the things are very messy here, or when the goods are not placed to their proper price tags. For fuck's sake, I am not the one messing things up. One Malay woman came and complain that we should separate our long sleeve and short sleeve shirts properly because mix together very hard to tell. Wah, I mix them up one wor. I take them out of their plastic wrapper and look at it then throw back anyhow one lor. I take the clothes hanging on racks, try them on and throw it into wagons when they don't fit one lor. I take the M&Ms from grocery dept and leave them in a wagon of camisoles one lor. Siao ah all of you. Don't blame us when you are the ones doing all the shit la. I even seen condoms lurking in a pile of towels lor. Anyw I was in a really shit bad mood today, because of fuck knws what. Then there's this auntie, I KNW THIS AUNTIE, she like kind of ..mad? Every time come and talk nonsense to me. Last time she came and told me the blouse we sell are very expensive, she can make them herself. Goodness, what are you still doing talking with me here? You have a blouse to make! Today, she talked to me at 9.55pm, which was 5 minutes from closing time. I am tired and hungry, and most of all annoyed because it was so busy today. Then she went to the kids' jeans section and ask me "Why these so cheap ah?" in Mandarin. So I said "Those are for little kids one." Then she say she can wear because her figure also quite small. Okay, her figure is small, I'll give her her due. But the jeans are like size 10-17? Her waist small also not small until so kuazhang ba? So I said "Your waist got 17 only meh?" because I was really annoyed at her ridiculousness. Then she say "Those adult one always put so big size, put so many also nobody want to buy! Only fat people can wear but fat people also don't want to buy!" I felt like I could die, but I decided to save some breath. Luckily Yanli came and told me it's time to knock off. I have exactly one week more of working days, and all of this shit will be over. I will collect my paycheck (totals $1000+) and GO SPEND THEM. And say goodbye to all of these annoying customers. Rantings Saturday, December 19, 2009 I have ran out of photos to post. I am also getting sick of waiting around for things to happen. My biggest nightmare come true would be if someone just told me that I am advancing instead of retaining next year. As I told my friends, I would whip out my Giant penknife and stab whoever the person is, unlucky enough to be the one relaying the message to me. This worry is because nobody from the school authorities actually sent me any official confirmation that I am being retained. Even though my father did tell Mdm So that I am persistent on retaining, and she did not object to it. And we discussed my subject combination and so forth. More than half of December is already gone. I remember on 2nd December I told myself I'm going to start studying. Now half a month flew past and I've done shit. I just can't get going. Even when I arrange a study date with my friends, I just end up stoning and sleeping and everyth but studying. I don't have enough determination. What the fuck am I supposed to do to get me going? Please, tell me if you knw. I am sick of going to IVLE everyday to check if 2010 year 5 classes are out yet, before, during, and after their upgrade. I am not that interested in finding out about my prospective classmates, I don't give a damn to tell the truth. They could be the most popular kid, the notorious bitch, whatever. I just want to knw if my name is in there, anywhere, at all to confirm the fact that I am retained. Because something is making me feel like I am not going to see my name, I don't knw why. Goodness, what the hell is taking so long for it to come out. I hope after everyth, this is all going to be worth it one day. ---- Okay, enough about those. Now about work. All my friends at Giant are leaving. Acer already left, Junxiong resigned this morning (!), today is Binsing's last day, and Wenyi will stop work after Sunday. What am I still doing hanging around?! Honestly, it's not that about my friends quitting that make me feel like quitting too. It's like, I guess I had enough of this retail experience. It had been enjoyable of course, but much too tiring and too many idiots to deal with out there. Now that JX is gone without warning, the work is only going to double. Guess what? Tmr is Saturday, which means work ends at 11pm. FML. After my two off days, now I have to deal with working for one week straight till my next off comes on Christmas day. By that time, my Giant career will be ending real soon. It all seems so near yet so far. One day down, 6 more to go. Yes, maybe I will do studying tmr. Maybe. I knw I won't end up studying. ---- When next year everyth becomes different, we will look back and start to hope we'd done some things a different way. Thursday, December 17, 2009  Lovely 5N girls. Haven't seen them for a long long time since I didn't manage to make it for 5N chalet. A fun bunch of people!Today, I went for my much-anticipatied study date with my new clique (LOL). Epic fail. I didn't even set eyes on anyth I set out to do, just stoned at the CSE notes Vincent gave me, and slept for awhile. Goodness. Really didn't do anyth productive today except for talk a bunch of crap with them. They are all so funny haha. I left earlier to meet Acer for dinner at Lot 1. He's finally back from Thailand with goodies for me heh heh :D  The tin looks so cute, no? All light and dark greens that reminds me of peppermint! It says double chocolate chip cookies on the front.So it was sitting on the table next to me and I can't stand it any longer, I have to open it because it looks so pretty.  I opened it to find a silver packet. Aiyo, slightly disappointing ah. But the cookie inside is freaking awesome! Not disappointing at all! Love it to the max man :D Favboy bought me an Ugly Doll which I absolutely love and another cute little thing. Okay, there's nothing much to my day. I'm going out tmr to get some artsy things and probably make pretty stuff for my friends, yaye! Wednesday, December 16, 2009  One of the people I absolutely love in this whole world. But haven't been able to go out with her for awhile. I can't even remember the last time I saw her in person. She's also one of the few people I knw who always put others before self. Actually, I only knw two people like that.. Anyw, I hope that I'll be able to go out with her soon now that the big 'A's are over.I guess this post will be rather disjointed in thought because I have a few separate points to make. As I have said before, it only takes me a few blogs to read to start feeling inferior about my own life. The people I read are friends, some close friends, some I barely knw, others just strangers whom I knw their names. I do not feel inferior because they are smarter than me, have nicer face and figures, richer than me or anyth. In fact, they are just really ordinary people like you and me. It is that they have as little as I have, but they are so truly happy with their lives. Maybe I am too demanding, but I really don't feel so. Maybe it's because I just can't accomplish anyth. All these years, all these freaking years. The amount of stuff I have done that would go down into my portfolio and make it look good are countless, maybe even more than the people I feel inferior in comparison to. Like I said, I do not envy them for their brains or looks. But after all these years, I am still a nothing, and I am still not truly happy with my life. All I really want to feel is just happy and contented. And like my friends tell me, I knw the problem still boils down to myself. What am I supposed to do, what can I even do? Another issue is that, I have amazing friends. Freaking amazing friends that I don't deserve. Friends that everyone wants to knw and be friends with. Friends who have entire social networks out of just being friends with me. People who, honestly, don't need to stand a second listening to another word of complaint from my mouth. They don't need me at all. Sometimes I am thinking whether what I have is enough. I knw that I am as selfish as a human and as a friend can go but I can't help it. I get possessive. It's like she said it's enough that we are close, but is it really? I really don't knw why they would truly want to stay with me and it makes me worry if one day I will just lose them without any warning. Do you knw, I am losing everyth. I can't aptly put across what I feel, but I knw that everything is going to be so different, no matter whether we can help it or not. I am a nothing. After so long, after everything. I am still a nothing. And even further away from where I started out. I found the resolutions I made at the end of 2008 for 2009. A year really just zoomed past without my realisation. Looking back at those resolutions, I want to laugh because it is utter bullshit. I fulfilled none of my resolutions. None. I guess for 2010, all I really want is to never ever bring back another report slip which I'd be afraid or guilty or regretful to show. Identity crisis, much. Never you mind. Tuesday, December 15, 2009  Two of my best guy friends after Jianlong. And ALL three of them are in this picture! :DWell, today was a pretty good day. I woke up and went back to sleep till noon, then I went out to meet Seow. We had Pepper Lunch for lunch! It was a good meal, yums. Then we went to our new campus and explored around, was great fun! Photos coming up!  Smothered by the smoke.  Seow was damn amused by the ALIBABA lamp lookalike.   At the big toilet.  "Hello, welcome. This is my house lift." :D  Hugeass auditorium.   A friendly bangla took the photo for us! They were slacking in this room listening to music and enjoying air-con haha.  In the analytical chemistry lab.  Lots of ponds around me.  Looks oriental!  The library! The walls are all glass and there's a flight of stairs leading to I don't knw where inside.  Even more hugeass multi-purpose hall. Can you see tiny Seow? Hello future floorball venue!  "This floor like bed sia. But not so soft." No more tiles, our passes will not jump up anymore haha!  Toilet behind hall, where we'll bathe after training next time.  We initially wanted to go lie on the synthetic grass field. But softball people were having training. Plus it was so scorching hot and sunny. Work was cool today because my friends came to visit me! Wenyi, Josephine, Shixian, Vincent Calvin and Kenneth. Love the people. And S.H.E songs were playing on a DVD player today, so I was singing along while doing facing (Y) Love today! I'll start studying tmr! After seeing my friends study at Starbucks I feel like I should. We have a study date on Wednesday on my off day. And Thursday favboy will be back and we can go out ;) Hope people who are flying off on the 15th will have a good trip! Taylin and Chienying to Japan and Myanmar (: Sunday, December 13, 2009  Two black people, LOL. She who used to send my quotes from the Bible everyday, but she self-unsubscribed the service. Long time since we chatted properly ;)Hi my friends, once again, I have to say that I don't have anyth to post about. Since there wasn't work today, I went out with Josephine to town to eye up things to buy for my next shopping trip with favorite girls. I still can't find a gold hairband that I like, and the black and gold bag is 45 bucks ): The last town trip with Sharman, Wenyi, Yeejin:  Due to parallax error, I had no idea I was taking up so much space since all of us were trying to fit in view of a changing room mirror at Code Red of FEP.In a flash, almost half of December is gone, and I have done no studying at all. Still can't get myself geared up for it. Tmr I will be visiting the new school with Seow and taking some photos to put up here! Our new school is huge, and on the bright side, I'm enjoying the facilities longer than my friends are, lol. I guess next year is going to be really different. In terms of environment, people, and things like that, and I need to brace myself for it. I've been facing it with a lighthearted attitude to my friends whenever we talk about this subject. I just said today that it is not that I do not feel upset or anyth about it. Even though I have really accepted it, but I am just putting off thinking about what I'll have to lose. One day it will all just come rushing to me. Y'knw? Everyth that I need to lose. I don't even need to count what to knw it's a lot. It's my whole life. New challenge for me will be CSE in exchange for history. I remember whenever I am studying for history this year, I'd be wondering why the hell did I choose to take up history because I had no freaking idea what is going on all the time. Until today. I have never truly studied for history tests and exams. And I swear to whoever, I hope CSE is really going to be better. My friends kept telling me that CSE is really hard and I need to be very conscientious in my readings to be able to do well. I hope that when I am studying for CSE next year, the same thought will not cross my mind. Ohyeah, I passed my history notes and articles to Josephine's junior Shaowei today. I hope they can help him way much more how they never helped me because I never bothered. He wouldn't read this but I do wish that he would do well for this subject and that my stuff could help him in some ways. I should learn to sleep earlier. 3 days to favboy coming back. I just woke up to a strange and adventurous dream. The setting was at Giant (seriously, maybe I am getting too much of work) and all the people are being captured, by other human beings, to turn all of us into Ugly Dolls but they were called yorks or something in my dream. In case you didn't knw how they look like:  I always thought they were quite cute, but still! I don't want to turn into them, some of them only have an eye or three! Neither do I want a "X" for an eye. So while the people at Giant were being rounded up, I began my escape plan. God knws why I didn't just get caught. I hid on the second floor of Giant while Seow came to join me. In my dream, she used her long fringe to shield herself from view, but I didn't knw how it was effective since only her face was not visible and the rest of her body was. But anyw she successfully made her way to me. While we were trying to escape, we ran into a queue of people who were caught and they were headed to the check-out counters. Which I thought was a bit weird here, because go to the cashiers' for what? Buy things before you turn ugly? In any case, I told Seow that we'll just join the queue and act like we got caught, then escape later. So while the queue got distributed to other counters, I grabbed Seow and we headed for the escalators down. But the exit was blocked by a few others who were already trying to escape. Side track: Giant at Pioneer Mall there is only one way up, it means that you cannot go downstairs using lift or stairs, only escalator all the way down, after you've paid for your stuff. So anyw, since we were so freaking desperate, we just squeezed past them, which in reality I knw cannot be possible. But the people who were catching us already noticed and were making their way towards us! In my anxiety, I gave up trying to go down the escalator normally, and I leapt off from the top of the escalator at every flight and surprisingly, I always land on my feet without much of a sound. Which I knw in reality I will fall to my death, or break a bone -.- Next we arrive at some sort of a car park, which we were sort of playing hide-and-seek with them. Somehow we just outwit and even outrun them, LOL. Then we come to this grassland where there is a huge canal and the grassland went around it. Me and Seow parted ways here as she ran to one side and I ran to the other. Like I said, I outran them and I still don't knw how that can happen. I met up with Seow later on and we got onto a car where Kahhan is the driver and his girlfriend is in the front seat. Which was so warped! Where did Kahhan come out from?! Then Seow turned into Yeejin ._. Wow Yeejin really zhuan4 dao4 man. Seow do the escaping and she just appear beside me when we were in the clear. LOL. Yeah and she was going on about how things were going to become fun the next year when everything is different. And I literally screamed at her "BUT EVERYONE WILL BE YORKS!" LOLOLOL. And Kahhan and his girlfriend were also talking about like turning ourselves in and just becoming one of the ugly dolls. I was so infuriated! I did not risk my life, running my ass off, jumping off escalators to in the end go back to getting caught lor! So I just told them this. And then my dream ended. So cool, especially the jumping off escalators part LOL. In the middle of my escaping my alarm rang and I was already quite conscious. But I just snoozed my alarm and closed my eyes and the escaping continued. HAHAHA. I knw that in reality I will definitely not go to such great lengths to save myself, and I think I'm the sort who will just sit down and let them catch me. Haha. Okay that's all people. Hope I get more exciting dreams!  Full house (:I survived my Saturday work! And tmr is off day! Of which I am going to go shopping with Josephine (and maybe Sharman)! Even though there were only CK and I at work today, it wasn't as tiring as last Saturday. So, it's good. (Y) So anyway, in case any of you were interested (I guess Sylvia is), here's a photo of my with my short hair, which I took about ten thousand times before it looked okay.  My fringe is still so long okay. Rawr. Good night people, I have nothing to post about already. Saturday, December 12, 2009  This had always been one of my favourite photos, and I don't knw why. I just get a really nice and comfortable feeling when I see this (: Missing 4H friends, and chalet isn't coming fast enough!So I went to had my hair done this morning. Was done by early afternoon, and I look roughly the same as every year after my haircut but this time it's slightly shorter. My mum kept going on about how my hair now makes me look like a little girl when she is the one who insisted I cut my hair short. I have no photo of me now to post, I don't knw why I suck at taking those photos. Went to JP with Seow again today and she did her free manicure at Nail Palace. I decided against it after awhile. Probably because I don't want to spend 6 bucks making my nails perfect then scratching it at Giant before I can even say "Shitballzz". Well Seow's satisfied with her blood red nails and that's good enough. I have to say, there's a common trend that Indian/Bangla customers are very annoying. I have to stress that I am not being racist and is just based wholly on my observations. So today, a bunch of banglas came and one of them told me that he read in today's newspaper that the jeans and shirts at Giant are having 50% off or something like that... I say: Maybe it's not available at this Giant. He says: But the newspaper write before Christmas can have the offer. I say: But we don't have it here, maybe you can try at other Giant outlets. He says: But I read it in the newspaper today that Pioneer Mall have. I say: Oh.. But we really don't have leh. Sorry about that. He says: But I saw in the newspaper.. Starting to get really annoyed at why the hell I can't get the simple message across to him, I say: But we don't have it here! To which he hastily said thanks and bye. What the hell, maybe he will complain about me but who cares I am waiting to get sacked as an excuse to end work early but they better pay me still. Like really annoying, no? Work was so tiring today I swear. Tmr is going to be worse because it's till 11pm. I HATE SATURDAYS. I am getting quite sick and tired of work at Giant. I feel like quitting along with all my friends, but I think my mum would start to suan me. And of course, if I work less I got to spend less, I'll earn about 200 lesser. Does that matter a lot? Have I mentioned I already spent about 400 bucks since my first pay? I knw it's freaking a lot. But I don't really knw what I spent it all on because I didn't buy all that many things. Or maybe I did. Whatever. I feel like my life is so empty right now. It's just work and fatigue everyday. I really want a day when I can just sit and lag at Starbucks with a Venti all day doing nothing but relax. Come back soon. Thursday, December 10, 2009  We both look freaking retarded in this picture but it's the only picture I have with him! Those black spots on his cheeks are charcoal, lol. Good man (Y)Since I woke up at 10am, I did nothing productive except stone here. Going out in an hour's time to meet Seow and go explore the newly opened Cotton On at JP. Actually, I don't even knw if it's newly opened or not lol. I am totally low on cash, but my shopping tendencies are still active! And it's likely that while the man who usually talks me out of spending impulsively is overseas, I am just going to spend like crazy :O Ohwell! As of today, I have not cut my hair for a whole year and one day! It's a big deal okay, I bet none of you can stand your hair growing thick and disgusting for so long. But it's going to be the last day with my freaking long and !@#$%^&* mop hair because I am chopping them off tmr. Short hair all over again. This is becoming a yearly routine. I've decided to just snip it short instead of leaving it long. And I won't tell you the long story of why I have decided so. To commemorate my one-year long hair, here's one for you which I took great pains to take:  Ghost much? I'm guessing all of you got scared because I look damn scary and y'knw what, the most apt word is just disgusting.Look at the length of my fringe man, please. How do you handle hair like that on a daily basis? Now you knw why I pin all these shit out of my face everyday and look stupid, or my face is going to be covered with acne and my eyeballs will be poked out of their socket. I keep feeling like I am talking to myself. Where is everybody? Short hair tmr~ I can't seem to find people who have time for me anymore. My off day's on Sunday, and no one is available for me to go out. Maybe I will just go town alone and experience what it feels like to walk the streets and shops without my friends, hahaha. I hope Seow and I get good finds later! Work again D: Wednesday, December 9, 2009  A few of my most favourite people on Earth (:Last night I was talking with Irene about the 4 of us. It's very unlikely for seniors and juniors 2 years difference to each other to have such strong bonds like we do. I feel really comfortable when I am around them and nothing I cannot do or say. Sometimes it's really hard to find time when all of us can meet up. Sometimes I find that we are out of each others' lives for awhile. But we never feel awkward or anyth when we meet again. It's so funny that friendships are so easy to break, it is so easy for us to drift apart and just not be close anymore. But somehow, we still are. Maybe it's because I am the oldest among all of us? I feel respected and important, but that's not why I love them. At least, not just this. It's how everyth is just alright somehow. I don't knw why and don't knw how. We could go out once a year, or a few times it doesn't really matter, and I don't knw why. I didn't like them at the start, but look at us now. I am glad I have them with me through all the good and tough times in my life to share my joy and unhappiness, and I can trust them to always make things better. As I told Irene, there are some friends meant for the study dates, some for the shopping trips, some for the emo sessions and so on. But I guess they are for everyth. Bestest people on Earth alongside those whose photos I have posted. And more to come (: ---- So I went to town today with Acer to celebrate our monthsary in advance, because that lucky guy is flying off to Thailand tmr for a week. Anyw, we had Swensen's and the whole experience is damn hilarious because we are cheapskate people LOL. Shall not elaborate!  Look at Acer's Mega Burger! It's such a monstrosity, comparable to Carl's Jr's burgers.  After the meal we walked around town and I brought him to Art Friend. That place is so amazing with lots of pretty things. Look what we found! Mr Skeleton! Lol. So typical but I gave him the idea hehe. Tuesday, December 8, 2009  Me and Yeejin at Xingnan's 75th anniversary carnival.We wrote our wishes on the balloons and set it to fly into the sky!I am tired out of my freaking mind. I can't be bothered about my Tumblr now because I am so tired to update anymore there, so I can only see my Tumblarity drop day by day...But, whatever. Work was really tiring today. Adding on to the fact that I am still not feeling really well, today only 2 people on shift. Freaking busy and encountered stupid customers who make me want to roll my eyes at them because they are just freaking idiotic.. Today I went out with Sharm and Wenyi. I spent $16.50 on my 2010 scheduler. Expensive I knw, but whatever man. Tmr is my off day, finally. I am going to eat good food and walk around town with Acer. Hope I stop getting tired so easily.  During floorball CIP - Ballet Under The Stars. Seow kept saying she looks like she's having a heart attack haha.Haven't updated everyday because I don't knw what to post about. Went out with Taylin, Irene and Yijun yesterday to town for a walk. I didn't buy anyth, didn't have the intention of buying anyth either. I was rather stoned at the end of the day because a random sneezing fit started, leaving me low on energy and really tired.. Been having insomnia for the recent nights. I feel really tired, but I can't fall asleep and I don't knw why. I resorted to writing down definitions from chem topics last night at 2am... I think I am falling sick. Having a bad headache now and the sneezing fits continue, making my head feel like it is exploding. And my throat is clogged up, feeling uncomfortable and itchy. I am kind of bent on not buying things like clothes, bags, accessories and shoes until my next payslip rolls around. Which is still a long time away.. But never mind. I have also said that I will abstain from Starbucks and Mccafe to save my money up for nice sprees. I heard about the new principal who is going to head up RV next year. I don't knw whether he is going to affect my life, but I hope not. Whatever it is, I just want this last 2 years to pass by peacefully. I think that work is really making me too worn out. Falling sick, aching legs and stuff. But I still enjoy the work! Even though I am stuck in one freaking clothes section to fold and fold for 5 hours, I don't even mind. I must be mad. The headache is killing me. I swear I knew what to post about a minute ago, but I forgot. Another time then. Saturday, December 5, 2009  This is my favourite clique photo, taken at our first class chalet.Haha sec 2 noob days. Actually I kind of miss them (:I think I'll post a photo here everyday to begin the entry. Actually, I don't have much to update about. Since everyday is just work and sleep. I still have not gotten down to studying, it's just so sian to even think about, much less do. I had Starbucks today after much yearning. And to the disappointment of both Shaun an I, Singapore Starbucks don't serve Caramel Brulee Latte, nor Gingerbread Latte. I had my Peppermint Mocha instead.. Today was rushed because Acer and I had to leave for work. Next time I'll leave Starbucks for a day where I had all the time to lag and just enjoy my drink. Make my 8 bucks well spent. I think I am addicted to shopping. Oh no, save my purse. Seriously? I have nothing to post about. Oh, I just remembered I had a funny dream last night. I dreamt that I was at some kind of event with Wenyi and a few others. It was rather crowded and I think an accident happened or something. When the event ended and the crowd dispersed, I went to Starbucks with her to buy ourselves a drink but we went in separately (I wonder why). After that, I went to take a bus to work somewhere around town, all along thinking Wenyi was with me but just sitting somewhere else on the bus, until I reached my work place then I realised I left her at Starbucks -.- It's so stupid I started to call her and tell her that I went on the bus to work already but I have alighted to the opposite side to go back and find her. But I couldn't move, I just continued sitting on the bus. I remember looking at my watch and it was like 4.52pm and I knew I was going to be late for work. But then I got down eventually.. And then I woke up. Haha, what a strange dream. Thursday, December 3, 2009  Every time I see this picture, I have a tendency to burst out laughing.Both my feet are absolutely killing me. Think I've been walking too much these days, work plus shopping and everyth. I feel really tired today, I don't knw why. The whole time during work I just felt like sleeping and wish that 10pm would come faster so that I can go home and rest already. I must really try to make an effort to start studying already. December is here in a flash, and will be gone in a flash. I must do what Xinyu says, work hard and play hard! Thinking of studying, it's just depressing D: I realised I still have lots of things I want and haven't gotten. Aye, need more money man. Currently the money's what's keeping me at work. Otherwise, I would really love to quit work and just laze around at home all day. Tmr's my mum's off day. Might be going to JP to get my Converse sneakers that's on sale for my school shoes next year. But maybe I'll get them myself instead because she'll normally start feeling lazy then decide to stay home instead. And, I need to start to call in the hairdresser and book a day to fix up my hair. It's a disaster man. Annual hair cut day again. Hoho, still thinking about cropping it short or leaving it long.. Sigh. Hope I don't have trouble falling asleep tonight... boring day Wednesday, December 2, 2009 Still feeling rather sleepy.. I think I slept for about 10 hours last night? Haha, aftermath of extensive shopping. Will post the photos here after Yeejin upload them to Facebook. She was complaining that the site's lagging yesterday. I'm used to everyth lagging already... My Tumblr page is looking weird again, I don't want to update there till it looks normal again. Oh, I just checked, it is looking less weird now, but not normal yet. I haven't been doing productive things! Everyday when I wake up I only wash the dishes before I plant my ass here till it's time to leave for work.. I don't knw what to do but I just don't have the studying mood now.. Sigh. I'm still waiting for Seow to text so I can go meet her for lunch after her shift. I don't knw what to do now la. Nothing to even do with the computer. I go iron my uniform -.- tired Tuesday, December 1, 2009 Oh god, I feel so drained now. It's like the fatigue that should come to me during bedtime yesterday got stored up somewhere and is crashing down on me all at once. Never mind. Today was a darn good day (: Yeejin came with us too and we went around buying and trying on lots of stuff, and posing for stupid photos by Orchard Road and laughing loudly on MRT -looks at Seow- I spent 85 bucks, LOL. Much much lesser than the speculated 300 bucks by my mother. Obviously I won't go and spend my whole half a month's salary on shopping la.. Think I'll make an effort to scrimp a bit now, no more luxuries, Mccafe all those. Till January, I'll go for another session of retail therapy for clothes, since I didn't buy much today... Alright, sleeping in a while. Seriously very tired. insomnia? I lay in bed at 2.45am trying desperately to get to sleep but to no avail. I finally lost consciousness at 5.20am. Couldn't even sleep pass my alarm of 9am, Acer says I'm too excited about shopping. Maybe, but wtf! I'm damn tired now please. Zzz. Maybe on December 31st I'll read through all my archives. Should I delete the blog? Or just leave it like my imcomplicatedd.blogspot.com? Aiya maybe I should just delete everyth. It's taking up a lot of cyberspace. LOL. Haix, panda eyes much. Good day Hello there friends, I figured since I'll do away with this blog in a month's time, I'll try to update more often here. Actually, I don't mean that I am going to stop blogging altogether, that's too much to ask for. I'm just hmm.. Changing the URL. Yep, new blog. It was a busy day at work today, I wonder why! We were not shorthanded but just busy the whole time running around. Lots of difficult and rude customers today, but thankfully the ever-patient CK was the one dealing with them. I would have exploded already. Scenario: Auntie wants to exchange the TV she bought to another model, which is sold out at PM. She was told to try exchanging it at IMM's Giant instead. She says, "Can you please go and call IMM and ask if I can exchange it for sure? I don't want to carry it all the way there and cannot change okay, I don't drive a bus." Ha, big deal. Go get a driving license and buy a bus lor -.- Everyth would have been fine if not for the you-owe-me attitude and tone used by customers, you knw? They really think just because they spend a few bucks here, they can rule you and make you lose your job. I hope nobody from Giant is tech-savvy enough to come and blog surf and then charge me for something. LOL. Tmr is my extensive retail therapy day with Sharman and Seow! :D Going to go crazy with my money man, dying for tmr to come hoho. Best day! I wonder if I can paint my fingernails black for work o.o |
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