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Saturday, October 17, 2009

I feel like my whole life is in shreds now. I just don't knw how to put it all in words.

By right, I shouldn't be feeling so bad. I've just done by (overdue) I&R and sent it out in the afternoon, and am working on draft 3 of WR which will be reviewed together with my group mates at my place tmr.

But this discomfited feeling just stays with me for the whole day. Or maybe I actually do knw what's messing my insides up. The fact that I still have not told either of my parents that they have a meeting scheduled with the principal in exactly 9 days to discuss about my dismal grades and my promotion status.

I feel like I am carrying this huge secret which is going to burst my mind soon. Almost everyone I knw had already told their parents, and they are more or less supportive of whichever decisions they have (except for JH). The thing is, even if my parents do knw, I'm not sure they are going to be very supportive of whatever I was going to say.

Maybe the school would really let me move along. Do I want it? I still don't knw. Which adds on to the whole emotional tornado happening within me. I've talked to many people, mostly my friends, a few seniors.. No one really supports what I want. Or tell me to just go along with what the school gives me. Don't knw if I really want to do that.

Dilemma. Not even sure whether I should keep thinking about it.

Lots of things I want to say. Kind of forgotten some, don't knw how to post about others. Life's just a mess right now. I hope things get better.

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To the nasty passerby:
Hey, if you don't like me saying vulgarities, then I won't. If you don't like to see me push my problems around, then I won't.

Yeah, really.
I won't.

FUCK YOU. AND MYOFB! (No prizes for guessing what the F stands for! In Your Face, so what now? Shoot me?)
Hahaha.

Disclaimer: This part of the post is not even trying to deny what you say, like I'm bad in character or like a weeping baby. I don't care what you say. It's about you here, not me.

Dude, honestly? I'm not the least bit fazed by what you say because obviously you're not someone I give a shit about. I'm seriously too apathetic to care about some nameless little shitbag trying to act like you knw me say some wise words. Save it to write a book la.

If you don't like anyth about me or what I say, if you got a problem with me.. I can only say,
DON'T MAKE YOUR PROBLEM MY PROBLEM.

If I were you, I would really feel honoured. Since I just dedicated one part of my post to you.
Goodbye, I really appreciated the entertainment in my mundane life though.

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