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Tuesday, October 13, 2009

It's such an unearthly time now, and the only reason why I'm here is that I am waiting for laundry because I cleverly forgot to turn on the washing machine and only realised at midnight, and also trying to do PW (but to no avail).

Some things to talk about. I am happy with PW discussion today, and am glad Wenyi expressed her unhappiness towards some group dynamics. Today's discussion was spontaneous, and hopefully fruitful for all and made us understand our report more. Now I am piled up with WR things to do because I am the one who's been slacking around and not doing anyth for the weekend. So now it's going to get me.

Tmr is promotional day. And you knw what that means, it's about me and some other friends. But I wouldn't really spend all my time tmr thinking about whether right this minute they are reviewing my case or not, because as I have said, I have full well accepted everyth that will come to be. I am glad that my friends knew what I want and don't want to hear. Thanks Yijun, I don't need consolations, I don't need any pity, and you knw me well enough to not give me these. I appreciate that you told me it would be a better year ahead, I really do hope so.

Wednesday, I will knw for real. I keep questioning what happens if I get advanced. It would really get me in a spot, but I am so certain I want to repeat and do it again. On the other hand, I can't graduate with all the people I love, which is really a shame. I guess I will only think about this question when I get my result slip. I am looking for someone who is experienced and knw well enough to point the direction for me.

Have been filled with immense unhappiness these days. In fact, for a long time. I realised that t was impossible for me to keep going on keeping all these to myself. But I am glad I did open up and release every single bit of frustrations I had, and cried every bit of tears I could. Emotional meltdown, but I hope it guarantees me happier days ahead. This is really what I want.

I pray, please, don't let me advance. Please don't give me the chance of having to face a dilemma of what to do and what's best. Please. Just let me do it all over again, do it better, without regrets. Please don't let me have the chance to think again and wonder if I could manage. I knw I could not.

You'd think I'm crazy. Who wouldn't want to advance given the chance to? Well, I wouldn't. You can take my chance if I had one. I really just want to start over and do it properly. I have long since embraced this and anticipates the beginning of something new.

Please.

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