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Tuesday, July 7, 2009

今天天空有点灰...

想东想西也想不出一个所以然来, 我是不是不该再想了呢?

有没有人可以告诉我, 为什么有人明明就知道他对你不好, 却还是那么愿意, 那么不顾一切, 回到他身边. 那样苦苦的等待, 希望等到有一天, 他终于会明白自己一直在忽略什么, 错过什么.

有些人等着等着, 突然问自己为什么在这样傻傻的等. 最后还是决定放手. 在爱到心灰意冷, 毫无保留后. 有些人觉得这样等着也是一种幸福, 所以一直这样等等等...

那么辛苦, 自己内心不停挣扎. 感情和理智不停打着仗, 最后不只两败俱伤, 而且什么结果都没有. 终有一天, 你再也按奈不住内心那越来越大的空洞, 你决定再回到他身边. 对于周围的人的想法充耳不闻, 自己选择对他的不好视而不见. 这样是最好的吗, 是你真的想要得吗?

虽然你大概不会读到, 读到也不会知道我就在说你, 但我还是要说. 如果你是真的希望她会回来你的身边, 请你好好对待她. 没有行动的言语什么意义都没有. 她是你心爱的人, 不是仇恨的对象. 如果有一天真的让她等到你懂得珍惜她的时候, 我不会多说一句.

又是在想, 是不是如果当初她就像其他女孩子一样, 那么的需要呵护, 和形影不离的那种爱, 她就会得到比现在更多的幸福和快乐. 更多的关注, 更多的疼惜. 是不是因为每个人眼中的她总是那么坚强, 才让他们觉得她没有别人更需要那份温柔? 是不是真的需要到这种地步, 到他们需要求她留下来的时候, 才会相信其实她跟别人没有什么不同. 就只是一个爱逞强, 伤心只给自己懂的女人.

是不是要到她的心都冻结成一块冰, 你们才会懂.

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First day back at school was hectic, and to say the least, overwhelming.

It isn't just about the overwhelming speed at which Mr Sean Tan goes through the lecture on Ionic Equilibria (the value is 1.00 times 10 to -14), it isn't just about Ms Lee telling us to have econs tutorial 5 section B done by tmr before it was even 8 in the morning... It isn't just that the amount of homework we got today was.... More than the lines my scheduler can contain. More than the smount of homework I would get in abut 3 days in the past.

It isn't even about Arab-Israeli conflict in the middle-east! Which was the only lesson that made me lose concentration.

Then, I don't knw what is it about. Maybe it's because during econs lecture our new GP teacher passed down sets of readings which are quite thick and in quite fine print, one set to be read by tmr GP lesson. Maybe it's because I knew that our chem SPA is in week 7 and promos are in week 10. Maybe it's because our PW teacher changed!!!

Omfg, heaven did us justice finally!

Oh yeah, maybe it's because people think that my flu virus will slap bang itself on the invisible barrier one seat next to me and will be unable to affect anyone out of that perimeter....

Anyw, I really did do my homework before I come online today la. Just that I only knw how to do about half of my econs tutorial, and the readings I'm only through with about 3 pages before I started to nod off. And I am not planning to do my chem eportfolio assignment lo... This day's been really mentally exhausting. Haix....

Anyw I finally bought my new uniform to replace one of the yellowish and non-elastic hemline one. Happy, but so tired. I wished time would allow me a few more hours for sleep tonight.

Hang in there.

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