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Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Oh yeah, it's me here again for some ranting.

Just finished my PI final draft. Gna be the thing I'm handing in tmr. A load off my shoulders, finally, after all my struggle and torment. Sad to say, it's not gna be the end of my nightmare.

After listening to the sorrows of my fellow classmates about today's particular lesson, I feel sorry for all of us. And sometimes, I wonder just why the hell I stay up late and try to accomplish some things when there are people who just don't give a shit to my efforts. Don't even bother with it huh, throw it right back in my face.

Do I deserve this? Does anyone?
Why do we, suffer different fates and all the unfairness. It's not even like it's out of my ability. It's about how some things just don't even get through.

Do you have the right to deprive me of my right to get something better, just because you only ask for the bare minimum, just because additional efforts are not compulsory? Am I obliged to feel satisfied with the least? You can be, but I won't.

Why are you like this? Why won't you just give us a little more credit?
People put in effort for their work you knw, and it's not meant for you to just throw it back in our faces, untouched. Is this the right way to do things?

I feel so... Unjust for myself. This is not what I deserve, nor anyone of us. Why do you have to make each and every time so excruciating for all of us? Can't you make things be a little better for all of us so we can just get through and all be happy? Why am I subjected to this?

I don't knw why.

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Alright, about the RJ match. We lost 0-2. But if you happened to stroll into the hall when the final whistle went off, you might have mistaken that it was us who won instead. It never felt so good to lose.

Defence was solid, Stella says. Good job everyone! But I played like shit today, so no credit to me. The first 2 goals were scored in the first period, for subsequent periods, no goals. We managed to keep our defence up all the way.

Anyway, I realise that I keep hitting the faces of people of RJ when I'm doing free hits. I whacked one girl below the chin and for the rest of the period, she was on me like a bull. Tough luck for bad aiming.

It was a good match. Now we're done playing with the Giants, MI and IJ are up next. But the less good they get, the bigger stress we face. I feel compelled to win, but I must never let it get into my head. MI's gna be a tough one, seeing as their people are really aggressive.

Will get better and better, or so I would like to believe.

Hope I stop feeling like I'm down with swine flu soon.

Anyway, I want to tell you people that, if you want to play truancy, you better get the hell lost and don't show your face around where I'll see you. Don't give me your self-righteous bullshit, I had enough of bullshit from people, and especially from you. Quit this seriously, or at least try harder next time with a better excuse.

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