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Saturday, May 16, 2009

Team with Stella.

Stella!

Slept late last night and woke up late this morning. More like afternoon. Don't feel like doing any history now at all.

Feeling pissed with the people at home. They are really a bunch of useless people who only knw how to add on to the mess. Never getting anyth done around the house yet pretending like they are some big shot.

Reason why I need a laptop is so obvious yet my parents just don't give a damn to how I feel. Why are games they play more important than my PW? I am expected to only use the computer from after 9.30pm and no earlier than that, unless no one is at home. Then the computer is shared between my brothers for the rest of the day. I can't even use it late into the night because my father claims that I am wasting electricity. Fuck my life.

And they complain. For crying out loud, go fuck yourselves la. I want to give my younger brother a good lashing seriously, for thinking he is such an important person to expect me to give him the computer when he wants it, even when I'm doing more important things. But then I guess I can't even be bothered. Can you even believe that if I use it when I am not supposed to I have to tolerate them eating into my time at night? What the fuck la seriously.

Since my parents are so biased, I wouldn't even mind if they would buy them a laptop to use so they can stop taking my right away from doing work on the computer. I feel so bloody exploited la. Who reaches home after a tough day at school and is expected to do the laundry and iron your own uniform?

As if it isn't bad enough that I'm treated like some unpaid maid. I always contemplate the day I just shut my bedroom door in their face and tell my mother to get something done instead. Take away my money and take away my phone la, for all I bloody care. When there's nothing else for you to take away, I'll see what you can do about me.

You think without money and without a phone will stop me from going out? It just stops you from being able to locate me when you want to. So you can't summon me home to do your chores. Ha, do it quick please.

All I am saying is, I just want a little respect. It's not about me having to do all these things and having to give in. It is about their tone of voice when they ask me to do it. Like a demand, like I owe them something, like I am obliged to. Fuck, I don't owe you no shit and not obliged to.

I'm not even sorry, or ever will be, about posting all these things on my blog. I didn't post it because I'm angry. I posted it because they are facts. Give me a break, will all of you. Stop treating me like your dog.

I sound childish, but I really don't care.
I have a fucked up family man. Life sucks and don't tell me it doesn't. You don't knw what it feels like.

Hey PVC, I wna acknowledge my family for making an impact on my life.
Thanks mother, for letting me knw what it feels like to be your dog and unpaid maid, and someone to go to when you need help, but when you don't need her you can snap and tell her to get lost.

Thanks father, for letting me knw the value of my life. Which is nothing. Since you claim I'm useless. But look who's talking.

Thanks brothers, for fucking my whole life upside down, for thinking you're great and hogging the computer all day long, sometimes when I didn't even do anyth in the day.

Thanks my family, for never being there for me when I needed some help, and some rest. For exploiting me like you picked me up from a rubbish bin instead of giving birth to me. For letting me knw there is nothing good about home.

Yeah, there's no place like home that makes me feel like I am worth nothing more than a dog.
Thanks for nothing.

But it's okay. I've learnt to be independent after all these years. So, it's not like I really need anyone around to fuss over me.

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