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Control freak

Sunday, April 26, 2009

I hope I have gotten whatever needs to be known for tmr's test into my head by now. Though I wouldn't say I was studying exceptionally hard at all for today. Anyw, I am not really bothered by the test. I knw where I stand.

And that is the last 30 of the cohort.
I just don't have what it takes to keep pushing on.

Floorball trainings on next week Monday, and Thursday. And our first match against YJC is on Tuesday, wish us luck man. I wish all these extra trainings are gna help. I believe we will perform up to standards.

No homework done this weekend. No econs, no chem, no nothing. Just math, and math alone. I am going to get owned tmr. And most certainly, my PI is undone. I don't feel like going to school anymore. I just want to stay in my own space and die or something like that. I just don't have what I need to do all these.

No resolution, no determination, no perserverance.

Reached home to find that my mother deducted 5 bucks from my allowance just because I forgot to mop the floor before I went out this morning. Totally wanted to scream at her to tell her to stop being so fucked up. This is not my responsibility, much less something worth deducting my allowance for.

Doesn't help matters for my father to side my unreasonable mother and telling me to get out of the house if I'm so unhappy. Just because I slammed the microwave door accidentally on purpose. Well, you get the drift.

Somebody tell me why does nobody around the house ever give two hoots about how I actually feel. I am worse off than a maid, I don't get paid and I get reprimanded all the time.

For fuck's sake, I am a student and my sole responsibility is to study. I don't have to get home to find laundry to do or dishes to wash. Stop making it seem like every damned thing around the house is supposed to be done by me. You exist for a reason, not just to eat and sleep like what you're doing now. P.S. Might I remind you that you don't even work as long as I study a day.

Anyway, I feel that I'm an ultimate control freak. But what to do? I'm just born a paranoid idiot.

I feel that my whole life is falling apart.
For now, life really does suck.

I'm so tired of all this.

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