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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

-The below post is just an entry to try and figure out my messed up thoughts-

I have no idea why I did what I did.

Just thinking about what Yeejin said yesterday. It's not like there is any difference when they're still here. Everyday's still everyday. So now when they've gone, why are we like this? Yeah, why? I wished I knew. Boredom is one thing, missing someone is another. I'm sorry, I knw I'm not supposed to do this but, I can't help myself feeling pathetic.

I've never really felt this way. Never really felt this stark emotion so terribly. And I hate this. The time that seems to crawl past ever so slowly. The nights when I'm kept awake and my thought hovers where I don't want to go. Everyday I wish something takes up my time, or an entire day so I'll be occupied. So I wouldn't stop. Wouldn't stop to think. I try so hard but I still end up where I am trying to get away from at the end of the day.

Everyday. Every single day I'll be planning to do something tmr, something, anyth. To stop myself having too much free time at hand and eventually going crazy with all these thoughts. This just isn't enough. Maybe I'm asking for too much. But I only have a letter and a text everyday. And I wait till close to midnight for that one text, but it isn't enough. I knw, I knw. It's the maximum to give but it's still so...short.

I knw I should learn to be contented and feel much more fortunate already. Somehow, it just makes me feel worse. I don't knw why I was so overwhelmed by this emotion. I just hope time flies.

8 days.

Sorry. Just ignore this. I'm just really going crazy already. Me and my thoughts.
Goodbye.

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