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Term 3 Week 2

Monday, July 7, 2008

Guess it's time to update in detail about the week. Not gna do backtracking anymore, because I find that it is so uninteresting even I don't want to read it when I browse through my blog archives. Tsk.

So, about the past week.. It's been kind of bad, or perhaps very bad. Feeling really worn out everyday even when I turn in earlier than usual, unable to concentrate in some lessons, not completing most homeworks.. Well, honestly.. It just felt like the way I was back in term 1. When everyday was just a mere passing, and all I wanted was to get through it. Basically, not really giving a damn about anyth.

This sucks. But I don't knw what is wrong.

Was told that I have to attend LA remedial from next week onwards. Was feeling really sore about it because I don't knw why in the world I am admitted into LA remedial. Any other remedial I would have just shut up and went for it like I'm supposed to. But of all subjects, LA? It's equivalent to telling me that I have to go for NAPFA retest when I scored a full marks I suppose. But what can I do, after getting such a screwed up reason, too. So, I can only shut up and go for it like I'm supposed to.

Sometimes I don't knw why I bother studying. You screw up, you get into remedial. You get an A2, you get into it anyway. What's the point, yo?

Yeah, and it doesn't help that I'm back in math remedial. I think I have enough attendance for permanent membership already. Okay, I'm not complaining.

Ohwell apart from that.. I can't really remember much. Went out to watch movie with Sharm, Yanyi and Chiouyih on Wednesday at West Mall. Caught Wanted. The plot is quite alright, I'm not exactly a movie critic anyway, unless it totally sucks or something. The main guy in the movie wasn't good-looking (LOL!), but at least Angelina Jolie was. Haha okay, at least it's another not bad movie.

On Thursday, went out with Xinyu, Chingxin, Lihui and Sylvia to get Spencer's birthday present. Had lunch at Koba and we talked alot of funny and crap stuffs lol. Then went to IMM and spent time trying to find him a wallet at first, then a sports bottle. But we couldn't find nice ones. Wound up buying him shirts (standard). But yep, I have to admit the combination's really nice. Hope he likes it then.

Went out with my girlfs Lin and Yijun, plus Irene to Vivo LJS for lunch. And a little bit of catching up. Guessed we really need that since I've been feeling quite detached from everyone and that includes them. Then Lin went back to school to do homework with me, when she had abit of time for interaction with Phyllis. Two siao kias interacting equals to... Well, y'knw what. LOL. And then left school, went to JEC with Shaun. Mostly wandering around there and got a free treat of Sweettalk :D

Ohwell this whole weekend's also been hectic. My purpose for being online isn't to do anyth but spam people with my CID survey because Yanyi and I need to get 100 respondents each. Well, it's all done. And special thanks: Matthias, Shaun, Jennings and especially Taylin who have given me like lots of responses. And also thanks to the rest who've helped me one way or another. The 100 is finally done and Yan's left with 13 more to go! :D

And I sent an email out to 23 people yesterday requesting them to help me do the survey. Yeah, guess what. Only 3 people reverted ._. So thanks alot to Kwanling, Mabel and Soohan! The rest.. Uh, you knw what to do la.

That's pretty much all to my shit week. This week seriously sucked. I guess I need to sleep more from next week on. Yeah and eat breakfast ._. Don't want to go back to how term 1 was again. Zzz..

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For awhile I thought that everyth had changed, just as I sat there and watched you, with your own circle of friends, own things to do. That maybe I am not that important to you, and you don't need me anymore. I knw time passes, and people change. I knw you might not mean it, but people do grow up. The fact itself is something good, because I want to see you strong and on your own too. I knw of all the wonders you can do, and what kind of person you can be.

Then maybe, maybe I'm just thinking a little to far into the future. Maybe for now I can still drown myself in the love and respect you are giving me. Maybe I've just started worrying a little too soon. For someone who don't really believe in such things, you've made so much out of me, I feel like the way I did two years ago when everyth just felt right around you.

I just feel that I am slowly losing grip of the people and things around me. Everyth I can afford to lose, but not this. Not you. Not any of you. It's inexplicable, I can't explain it myself, the dependence and all. And this is all true. Guess I need to keep the faith.

And stop thinking so much.

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