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Jaded

Thursday, July 24, 2008

I suddenly feel so worn out. It's been a rough week, and I'm feeling drained.

Don't knw why the sudden feeling of being overwhelmed with fatigue, I do not think I have been doing alot, or what is expected of me to feel so tired. Yet somehow, I just am. Been bugged with the common cough, occasional sneezes, headaches now and then this week. But then again, it isn't just physical fatigue.

I knw I should feel happy. And I am, I really am. I haven't felt so genuinely happy for so long, and this week's been the closest I had felt to it. Yet everytime I ride high with new hopes, it has to be dashed with the same old obstacle. Over and over again.

I'm trying to be immuned, trying not to waver and not be affected. But it's getting harder and harder. I'm feeling restricted, like I am not supposed to feel so happy even though I really am. I wished I hadn't trusted that things will sort itself out and went along with my heart, I wished. Every glance reminds me of the mess that I'm in. Every reminder stands as an obstacle between us.

I'm trying to convince myself that I am not at fault, but it's so difficult to do so. Much as I want to believe.. Tell me what do you do, when I have to lose something, in order to gain something. And both are important, can't let either go. Stuck.

It's not that I'm not happy. I just feel that I shouldn't be. Just feeling kind of jaded..

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